The Curse of the Heart

There’s been way too many times where I felt like an idiot,

I am true to my sign and it is unfortunate… too me anyways,

How many chances is one willing to give and get nothing in return besides apologizes?

Why is it that I am the last thing that matters?

When nothing else is going on then maybe we can see what I’m up to or try to make time for me..

I don’t want to be anyone’s last option but here I am doing just that,

My heart is heavy && it seems like it’s not reversible. The damage is done.

No amount of bandages can patch up a wound this big…

No amount of sorries can make me feel loved again…

I have a heart.
I have a huge heart.
I have a heart that only wishes to please && get nothing in return.
Why?

Why am I like this?

Why is it always me?

Why can’t anyone see me for me?

Why do I have to be this way?

No one cares..

I spend my only day to do anything I can do, waiting on you.

Hoping with my heart filled with happiness,

Only for it to be taken away just as fast, like it never existed.

I am such an idiot for thinking anyone would want to take the chance to get to know me.

Have the chance to be happy,

&& feel loved.

Who was I kidding?

It is up to me to break the cycle…

but unfortunately, I don’t like to hurt people in that way && make them feel unwanted or ignore them….

Even though it happens to me more than it should.
I have a heart and it sucks 🙁

It is like a curse && there is no curing that.

💔😞

xoxoLaLa

This might sound crazy…

I don’t even know who you are

&& I’m already in love with everything about you

I can already feel my cheeks hurting from all the smiling I will do when I think of you

I am already looking forward to all the amazing things that we can do together, all the adventures and all the little things that will make us happy

I can already feel the warmth of your touch, for it has been missing for way too long

I can almost hear your words of sweet nothings as I talk to you every night

I can feel your hand to wipe away my tears of sadness when you must leave me for the night

I can hear you whisper good night as you close the door behind you

I can feel your heart beat through your chest as the speed matches mine!

I can almost hear your laughter as I tell you a little joke that was not that funny

I already appreciate you for supporting me in everything I’ve been wanting to accomplish

&& I appreciate your hugs after a long day

Thank you,
Whoever you are!

xoxoLaLa