Never Alone

For so long
I have been in a rut, trying to figure out,
Why.
Just a why in general

I have always been kindhearted when it comes to most things.
I think it is important to let someone know that they matter.
I think it is important to reach out to those you know and ask,
“How are you?”

I know it is not much but it is something,
It is not something that is hard to do,
In fact it is one of those things that people take for granted…. a lot 😦

Saying something as simple as “Hey, what’s up, how have you been?” Can give someone so much life and make their day a million and one times better! 🙂 🙂

But a lot of people unfortunately can not see that….
So many people are broken,
So many people are hopeless,
So many people are unloved….
So many people give kindness and get nothing in return
.. Just a simple read message,
And it kills them inside, but no one can see that, no one understands…

Or cares?

I can only speak for myself.
And for myself I will.

I found that I have been trying for so long to “sell” myself to people, for them to see
that I am actually a pretty cool person, who cares, who will pick you up when you are down, to give you life when you feel like all is lost.
To be by your side and make sure you conquer the world!

But none of that matters,
No one cares, because people only see what they want.
So many people are only in it for themselves…

This world is too big, to try and fit all the pieces together.
This world holds too much for you to lose yourself over the small things.

All you need is a smile,
I know that it might not seem like much but it can make you feel,

Wanted,
Loved,
Passion,
ALIVE!

Always remember that you do not have to walk this Earth thinking that you owe it something.
Never walk with your head down, for it should be held higher then the mountains.
Always keep that pretty smile of yours and never let it a frown peak through.
Never do the things that you don’t want to do.
Always love with your heart &&
Never let anyone else tell you otherwise

You got this, I promise!
(This is a post for myself and for anyone who needs to be lifted up. I cannot speak for anyone but myself, but I can let it be known that you are never alone! 🙂 )

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xoxoLaLa

Bring on the STORM!

Bring on the storm
Bring on the hurt
Bring on the pain
Bring on the sorrow

Let the tears stream down these cheeks upon your face
Let the words speak that have been hidden for so long

Release the anger that can no longer be built,
For it is ready to be torn down

Break down the walls that have held so much bullshit and lies
Break down the doors that have been blocked by knocks of anger

Destroy the hope that never was
Restore the heart that has fallen to pieces
Rebuild the life that has been lost

Release the suffering for one last cause
For it is time for you to rise

Bring on the smiles
Bring on the joy
Bring on the love that has been lost

Bring the heart that wishes to be mended
Spread the hope of one day feeling complete
Let out the tears of joy from releasement

For you have learned you are incredible

xoxoLaLa

Finding Strength

Struggling to keep my composure.
Struggling to not think about you, or anything that has to do with you.

It sucks, but it has to be done.

I don’t want to keep living this life for someone else that never cared.
I don’t want to keep living my life without you though.
I don’t want to keep living my life with you in my thoughts.
I don’t want to keep feeling the sadness that I once thought was all happiness.

I miss you,
I miss you more than you will ever know.

…………

A little bit of time has passed,
Time that I didn’t get to speak to you.
Time that I didn’t get to see you….
But
I had the chance,
I just opted not to.
I wanted to see if you would still be there if I took a step back.
I wanted to see if you really cared for me or at least thought about me.
But you didn’t.

What was I thinking?

This whole time I was blinded,
Blinded by hope and maybe even desperation.
I wanted you to want the same things that I did..
But I was wrong.

………..

It was a lie.
A lie in which I let go on for way too long.
A lie that would string me for years to come.

I was just happy with you.
Very happy.
The thought of you made my heart skip a beat.
(Even years later)
Every time I would see your name, I felt like I couldn’t breathe.
You made me the happiest I have ever been…
In such a long time.

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You made me smile from ear to ear, everyday for so long
I couldn’t wait to wake up the next morning to hear from you.

But we were never truly on the same page.

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Never let anyone be the reason to your happiness.
Include them.
Do not let them be the main reason.
Be happy.
Find you.
Who needs em?
Not you!

 

 

xoxoLaLa