Sometimes it is hard to believe that I keep falling for the same BS people dish out to me. I’ve been blown off && forgotten about more times than I would like to admit.
But it’s true
I kind of hate how I am. A true Pisces.
&& it can be super annoying
because at the end of the day I still care && don’t want to hurt anybody on that level….
While it has always seems to happen to me && then I am stuck there left alone.
Left on Read.
&& ignored like nothing happened …
Three strikes && your out.
But yet I keep stepping back up to the
I want to be happy. I really do but I don’t know why I keep letting others put me down.
I am stronger than that && I have to learn that it is okay to hurt others.. to a degree…
&& to speak my mind even if it is something that they are not going to want to hear.
&& that is one of my fears..
I am already all alone.
My life is pretty bland.
I don’t know what’s wrong with me.
But people will make it seem that way.
I have always dropped or changed things around that I wanted to do just to get the chance to hangout with someone I was looking forward to seeing.
&& in return… it is never that way. I hate it.
I need to change the way I am.
I have to stop letting others get the best of me.
I have to be a stronger person because I do not need them.
I don’t need anyone that doesn’t enjoy my company.
I don’t need anyone that doesn’t respect me enough to speak what’s on their mind instead of leading me on.
I don’t need or want false hope.
I would just like to be treated the way that you would want someone to treat you.
&& I don’t think it is that much to ask for honestly.
I think no matter what I will still always have a good heart.
Just not for you anymore.
4ver && always