There’s been way too many times where I felt like an idiot,
I am true to my sign && it is unfortunate… too me anyways,
How many chances is one willing to give && get nothing in return besides apologizes?
Why is it that I am the last thing that matters?
When nothing else is going on then maybe we can see what I’m up to or try to make time for me..
I don’t want to be anyone’s last option but here I am doing just that,
My heart is heavy && it seems like it’s not reversible. The damage is done.
No amount of bandages can patch up a wound this big…
No amount of sorries can make me feel loved again…
I have a heart.
I have a huge heart.
I have a heart that only wishes to please && get nothing in return.
Why am I like this?
Why is it always me?
Why can’t anyone see me for me?
Why do I have to be this way?
No one cares..
I spend my only day to do anything I can do, waiting on you.
Hoping with my heart filled with happiness,
Only for it to be taken away just as fast, like it never existed.
I am such an idiot for thinking anyone would want to take the chance to get to know me.
Have the chance to be happy,
&& feel loved.
Who was I kidding?
It is up to me to break the cycle…
but unfortunately, I don’t like to hurt people in that way && make them feel unwanted or ignore them….
Even though it happens to me more than it should.
I have a heart and it sucks 🙁
It is like a curse && there is no curing that.