Better

Mixed Feelings.
Mixed Things.
Mixed … Everything?

One minute I am happy and am feeling like I am on top of the world,
The next I am just slumped down in the dumps….

BUT

I am finally starting to look at things in a different light.
Making the changes I need to, to be able to live a better life.

To be happier!
To be myself!
To be creative!
To be anything my heart desires!

AND

To stop thinking about other people and making them think that they are more important than myself.
To stop thinking that other people come first that never truly mattered
To be able to see and know my worth!
To be able to be free!

No..
My life is not perfect, it is far from it but I try my best everyday to make something out of it.
I want to learn how to wear a smile on my sleeve everyday and spread happiness everywhere I go.
I want others to know that there are so many options and good things in life that can have an amazing outcome!

xoxoLaLa

Nothing But Thoughts

Have you  ever just looked at something and thought damn… my life really does suck, “I’m missing a whole lot, like how am I even living?”

(okay you get my drift)

It seems like lately I have only been talking about the same topics, but it is one of those things that I do feel strongly about. (like 80% of the time)

There are times when I see things that I get “jealous” of….
See things that I want and things that make me think…

“Well how do I get that?”

Happiness …

(I am so obvious at this point)

I was recently browsing on literally every kind of social media that I have an account to (literally like 3) and noticed how people possess this band with another person that seems to make the world stop and they are the only ones in it.

Maybe that takes an extension of happiness and is more along the lines of LOVE, something I clearly lack in the relationship world.

And after a few years I am still unsure of how I feel about where I am and what I have…..

I hate that I go through these “phases” one minute I am absolutely happy with being single and the next it feels like it is the end of the world.

But hey what can you really expect when you don’t put yourself out there or people think you are not real on dating sites…

Clearly  a win, win situation right there.
Who knows.
Anyways…

Dating sites are not for me, I find them to become annoying  after like a week of people copying and pasting the same message or people who are on their to find someone to PLUCK.

In my uneducated opinion I find that on a whole different level and maybe, I am being a bit harsh by saying this…

“But if you are on a dating site solely to sleep with someone, you should probably reevaluate your thoughts and your life?” Like come on, you don’t know anyone in your real life to bone….
One thing I will never understand and I am also one of those people who is not all about throwing it to the first, second, third or tenth person who gives me attention.

Not about that life.

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I am fortunately, (or unfortunately) one of those “rare” people who has enough respect for myself to not see how many guys I can get. I am an independent person who actually has a good heart (working well… still not sure) but that’s  just the way I am you can either take it or leave it. (leave it is the most popular option so check that box before you leave!)

But it literally is all crazy to think about. But that’s just my thoughts and opinions with some fun facts about me…

End Rant?

xoxoLaLa