I am definitely a passionate person
I am also a person who loves love
I have been in love and more recently been out of love
I have fallen out of love with so many different things that I was once passionate about
Which saddens me a little
I have always had that picture perfect image in my head where I would find someone
..well more like he would find me…
(some people make it look so easy)
But it is not that way at all. Two years and still I wonder where I am suppose to be in life.
Am I meant for this lifestyle? Or am I suppose to wait? Or should I step out my comfort zone?
It honestly terrifies me of putting myself out there.
It sucks… almost all of the time…
I dont know how many times I’ve been blown off or forgotten or even just ignored…
&& that in itself just makes me wonder what is wrong with me.. or what have I been doing wrong this whole time…
Something that I have realized that is a pattern that we all do is, we do the same thing to other people all the time..
Ignoring someone who you aren’t interested in and in the same breathe wonder why you can’t find that “perfect” person.
We only want to give chances to the “wrong” people and probably 8 times out of 10 its all about how the person looks which can be unfortunate, but in some cases. It doesn’t matter what you look like… you just never had a chance to begin with..
Lets just get right down to it…
I am one of those people who love, love!
I love seeing happiness in others
I love seeing the passion that people hold towards each other
It is one of those things that makes me happy and even have some hope for myself
I’ve always told myself one day it will be your turn.
One day you will find someone who can’t stop thinking about you!
Everything seems to be one day..
&& maybe it is true.. maybe it is not…
But that I don’t know for sure. unfortunately.
I find myself going out of my way more often I probably should to see how someone is
To see how their day or week is going…
Or maybe even to just say hey hi hello
To just check in after a few weeks
&& still there has been so many times where I have been left on read…
There aren’t a whole lot of people out there that will take time out of their day to see how someone is doing and actually mean it.
It is one of the things that frustrates me with this day and age.. it is terrible
..but what can you do?
Besides hope for the best for everyone you encounter even if it isn’t a mutual thing, it still counts for something! 🙂
Even though I am the way I am.. I still have always had hope floating around me
&& believe me when I say.. sometimes it feels like its the end of the world and all you want to do is beat yourself up over the things you can’t control and that might make you feel alone but you are never alone! You just have to remember that day in and day out!
I could say a lot more on this subject
But I will end it here…
&& maybe continue it at another time,
so until then..
Don’t worry, be happy
&& smile daily ❤